Sunday, October 31, 2010

15 Minutes

I'm sure you've heard Andy Warhol's infamous saying, "In the future, everyone will be world-famous for 15 minutes." That's where we get the saying, "Your 15 minutes of fame." It's just a saying. Right?

I've frequently thought about those 15 Minutes. Wondering if I've already spent them (a brief public radio interview/song when I was 19 couldn't possibly count, right?). If not, trying to figure out what they'll be. Finally making it to SNL after all these years of not actually trying? That's where I assumed I'd be by now when I was young. Perhaps I'm meant for a mediocre showing on Jeopardy!? That sounds appealing. I've actually avoided things that might be considered a poor use of my 15 Minutes, just so I don't waste them.

The thing I'm afraid of is that it won't count. I mean, it won't be important. No one will remember it. It won't further any sort of career I might be attempting, won't be interesting, won't be useful, won't make a difference. Something that I allowed to be a highlight of my life won't be a blip on anyone else's radar.

Why does it matter? Why do I think about these things? Part of me wants to be Tina Fey, and the rest of me is thinking about the kind of legacy I want to leave. Right now, my legacy looks like someone who barely tried to make any of her big ideas come to fruition. I'm an idea person. I've got loads of ideas—books, movies, products. I could run a business simply selling ideas that I'm not going to use because, honestly, I'm not going to use them.

I guess the bigger legacy in question is the example I set for my son. I want to say, "Son—go! Do! Be! You have amazing potential! Use it!" I can already see he's smart and charismatic. But what kind of slacker am I sending him out into the world with that advice when I've never followed it myself?

I was always told to not make any waves. Just do what I've got to do to get by and don't disturb the status quo. But sometimes you've got to if you want to make a difference. If you want to try something. If you want to succeed.

Perhaps my purpose isn't to be famous. Perhaps my purpose is to raise my son to be a leader so he can do the world-changing. But I always wonder what God has in store for me—or what he would have in store for me if I showed a little initiative. A little drive. A little trust.

Have you spent your 15 Minutes? How would you like to spend them?

1 comment:

  1. Rachel, your 15 minutes is continuing! Look at your followers. And I don't think we ever "arrive." Life IS the journey, and you never know who you affect outside your family.

    Blessings** (Still in prayer for your surgery.)


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