Ah, toddler logic. Cute and, at the same time, the bane of my existence. You can't reason with toddlers! You can't guide them! They're little "no" machines that want their own way and they don't even know why.
I have one, you see. A toddler. I don't blog about mommy stuff a lot, but sometimes your kids reveal things about your faith that you didn't see before.
Tonight is one of those nights.
We made a trip to the grocery store tonight, and my son wanted to put his coat on. By himself. With no help.
"I gonna do it!"
He couldn't figure it out, but he wouldn't let me help him. Honestly, it wasn't even a coat—it was a fleece vest. Maybe that's more confusing than a coat? I don't know. I've never put a lot of thought into it. But he was adamant that I wasn't going to help him. I ended up having to maneuver the vest so he thought he was putting it on himself, but I was really helping him into it. Tricky mom stuff.
At bedtime, I had to give him a bath and brush his teeth—things Daddy usually does, but Daddy now has a Bible study on Tuesday nights, so it was up to me.
"I gonna do it!"
He had to get out his pajamas. He had to find the lip balm, take the cap off, put it on his lips, put the cap back on, and return it to the caddy. He had to turn the water on to rinse the toothbrush.
Why are these things essential to a toddler? They're not difficult. I really could do it for him and he'd be no worse for it.
Especially the lip balm. Those little suckers were not meant for toddler hands.
I understand that he's learning to do new things and that it's important for him to do some things on his own. But when does he learn to ask for help when he needs it?
And then it struck me: When will I learn to ask for help when I need it?
I can't do everything myself, but I act like I can. I choose to leave God out when he could very easily lend a hand (and get the glory for it). Instead, I'm determined to be independent! To be self-sufficient!
To be arrogant.
To be proud.
Jeepers. I'm like a toddler in my faith.
And I thought I was at least a sassy pre-teen.