So—today's the big day!
I asked for essays about being a lazy (or unlazy, really) Christian. I got some great ones! I prayed over the process so that God would be the one choosing the winner, and then I sent the essays to my panel of Christian writers who made their picks. And the winning essay is posted here today!
And the winner is...
What makes me a lazy Christian?
One word: procrastination.
Without a deadline, I think I have all the time in the world to live out my faith. For example, at the beginning of this year I sought the Lord about a book idea I’ve had for years now. For 21 days I fasted and prayed for direction and God spoke clearly: Focus on the book. It’s time.
And here I am, in mid-May, with little progress to report. Why?
Because I had other things come up like dentist and doctor appointments, my son’s basketball games, my daughter’s theatre classes, my husband’s travels, my Toastmasters meetings, a couple speaking engagements, spring break vacation, and let’s not forget my growing grocery list and dirty laundry.
Bottom line is: I didn’t make writing a priority. I gave God excuses.
“I’m too busy.”
“I’m too tired.”
“It’s too hard.”
“I don’t know what I’m doing.”
“What if I’m theologically off?”
Plus God didn’t give me a deadline—or did He? I have time, right? I’m still thinking about writing, I’m just not doing it.
Truth be told, I’m afraid. Afraid of failure and afraid of success. Writing a book on shame is a lot of tear-stained-behind-the-scenes-hard-work. What do I have to say that is worth reading anyway? Do you hear doubt? I do. Can I trust God to use my pen to speak hope and healing to those bound by shame?
I do believe, Lord, help me with my unbelief.
It’s humbling to admit I’ve been walking with God for over fifteen years now and I still struggle with following His daily lead. Obedience is not my strength. Procrastination is.
It’s my fatal flaw.
And I am here to confess my fatal flaw must go. I’ve had enough of my delay. I’m sick of me and my excuses. I’m ready to embrace the new me, Christ in me. The One who lives unashamed. The one who reaches out to those in need without hesitation. I am begging God to take my procrastination and make it productivity, for when I am weak, He is strong.
Only God can take a girl who loves to wait and push her out of my comfy nest. It’s time to stretch my wings and fly.
Bye, bye Procrastination. I’m over you. I’ve got places to go and people to see, so help me God.
© Tiffany Stuart 2011