|Florence and...wait. Where's The Machine?|
I don't want to get emotionally invested in another music group.
I've always loved music. My job in high school and part of college was at a record store. Yes, we still sold some vinyl when I started there, but not for long. I got free CDs (in addition to my employee discount on all the other CDs), free concert tickets. It was an awesome gig. And, as I've mentioned before, I spent a few years in and after college as a music snob. That was too exhausting, though, so I gave that up.
Now, I have friends who are ca-razy over musicians. I have a friend who's gone to every Alanis Morissette concert within 50 miles of her house. Another one of my friends is a huge Sister Hazel fan. They're very dedicated, and I admire that. When I met my husband and he told me his favorite band was Counting Crows, I thought, "They're still a band?" I've now seen them in concert several times and they're one of my favorites, too. I also enjoy Coldplay a great deal, and Wilco is possibly my very favorite band.
But I just don't have the time or energy to feel head over heels for musicians.
But, Rachel! Try The Civil Wars! You'll love them!
It's true. I might.
But, Rachel! Haven't you heard Gotye? He's super artsy and amazing!
Yep, I like that one song a lot. But I don't want to listen to any more.
|Zzzz...oh, I'm sorry. Were you singing?|
Dude. You lost me there. I saw them (him?) open for Wilco once and they put me to sleep. Literally. I was asleep in my chair. Even if I did have the energy to like a band, they certainly wouldn't be the band I'd choose.
While I like music a lot, and I like songs and bands in all kinds of genres (except techno, of course), I will never be anyone's #1 Fan. I just can't get crazy about a music group. And while I really, really like movies and TV shows, I could probably live without them. I don't belong to any fan clubs. I don't write fan fiction. I don't write fan letters to actors. Anymore. I did write Neil Patrick Harris a letter when I was a kid and he was Doogie Howser, M.D. I got a postcard (which I still have) in return. I'm set for life with that one. I don't even buy t-shirts at the Counting Crows and Coldplay and Wilco concerts I enjoy so much!
Sometimes this trait worries me. Do I not have passion? Am I not a passionate person? Surely I could spare a little of the stuff for a band or actor or TV show!
It seems I find relationships of all kinds fairly exhausting. My husband is the only person I feel like I can be around constantly without feeling drained. Even so, I'd much rather invest in people who are invested in me than in bands and TV shows. What's the return on a pop culture obsession?
In the same vein, I do wish I felt more obsessed with God. I'm not sure if I keep myself distant because I think a closer relationship with him will exhaust me, too (although I know it won't), or if I just don't feel like I have the energy to invest in the first place. This is something he and I have to work out, I suppose. Think he'd sign a non-exhaustion agreement with me?
What about you? Do you invest your time and energy in outside interests more than your relationship with God?