I'm starting to get a little antsy.
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And it's kind of exhausting.
My life has been one of constant change, and now I'm suddenly settled down. Seven years is two years longer than my longest in-person best friendship. People are actually getting to know me. I'm getting to know other people. When people find out the junk in my life, I can't anticipate a move that will take me away from them shortly. I'm pretty much going to be here for the foreseeable future. Maybe not in the same house, but definitely at the same church, with the same community. I'm putting down roots, something I don't feel like I've had before. It's weirding me out. People are learning about my faults and my shortcomings, and they either learn to live with them or call me out on them. Either way, it makes me feel kind of uncomfortable.
I'm not sure what to do. I'm not sure how to proceed from here. I'm honestly feeling some anxiety about this situation, and I'm tempted to cut ties and convince my husband to go to another church or something because I don't know what life is going to look like from here. Will I know the same people forever? Not that my friends aren't great, but I'm just not used to the idea of always having the same people around. I've always been jealous of people who have had the same BFF since middle school or high school. Such an intimate relationship! I tried looking up some Bible verses about friendship, but of course the first one that came up was Proverbs 20:6:
Many will say they are loyal friends, but who can find one who is truly reliable?
Have you been in a similar situation? Finally putting down roots and kind of overwhelmed by it? What did you do?