|Be afraid. Be very afraid.|
I think God saw me getting too comfortable. I got the feeling that he wanted me to leave the safety of my church walls and participate in the local theater scene. Salt and light and all that. I prayed and prayed about it, and the answer became clearer and clearer. So, with great peace, I resigned from the drama ministry.
God still wanted me serving inside the church walls. And I felt that he was pushing me toward the kids' ministry. Elementary school kids. My kids are four and under. I've taught junior high and high school kids. Why on earth would elementary school be the place for me?
A Short Play by Rachel
"Buts and Nopes"
Scene: RACHEL is in her bedroom, praying.
RACHEL: So, I think I'm supposed to go help out in the kids' ministry.
RACHEL: No, like the elementary kids' ministry.
RACHEL: But—I don't wanna.
GOD: Well, you should. I need you there.
RACHEL: Naw, not me. I don't have anything to offer!
GOD: Sure you do. Don't I know you better than anyone? It'll work.
RACHEL: But maybe you forgot that I don't really work with kids this age.
GOD: Maybe you forgot that I'm God. If The Almighty is asking you to do something, maybe you should—I don't know—stop arguing? Just do it.
RACHEL: Ha! God knows what Nike is!
GOD: I love your sense of humor, Rachel! Your obstinance is something else, though...
RACHEL: I'm made in your image, you know.
GOD: And I'm a great listener. You, not so much.
RACHEL: Ha! But I can't...
GOD: Rachel. Stop making excuses. Just go.
RACHEL: Fine. But if I crash and burn, I'm holding you responsible!
GOD: Fine! But you won't. Trust me.
I felt a little like Moses. Not the parting-of-the-Red-Sea, confident Moses. The I-don't-wanna Moses. When God first asked him to go back to Egypt, Moses came up with every excuse in the book.
Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”
The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”
But Moses said, “Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.” - Genesis 3: 10-13
Moses made no less than five arguments against doing what God asked of him. I'm pretty sure I made at least that many. But I went. And you know what?
It was exactly where I needed to be.
Turns out that the director of the children's ministry had been praying for strong leaders last week, so my e-mail to him was an answer to his prayers. Isn't that cool? He got another e-mail last week, too, and when he introduced me to the other volunteer, it turned out to be a friend from my small group! Small world, huh? By the time I finished on Sunday, I knew it was the perfect place for me. Not only did I feel useful, but I really enjoyed the kids. So God was right. Chalk another one up for The Almighty!
It was really hard to step out in faith, especially somewhere I wasn't comfortable. But since these decisions were made, I've felt joy and peace like I've never had before. Obedience has its own rewards. I'll take 'em!
Do you find it difficult to be obedient and step out in faith? What are the rewards?